[Stephen]

Unfortunately, I went through a purge several months ago, and everything went out with the trash... It technically wasn't a huge loss, as far as value is concerned. Psychologically, though, it was actually pretty tough. I told my wife about my fetish, and she seemed pretty cool with it at first. After a few days, though, she just seemed distant and didn't want to talk about it or acknowledge the fact. I really wish I could be open with her, as I feel this is a pretty integral part of who I am. I wish I could change myself, but that's easier said than done. I value my relationship above all else, but it's so hard to repress your identity and desires. I've been struggling over the notion of jumping back in lately, so I made a small purchase online a few days ago. I guess it's back to wearing them when I can- slipping them on at work or when I travel for business. All of those guys with understanding wives and partners should feel fortunate. It seems silly to be so conflicted over an article of clothing that I want to wear, but I guess it's all of the social stigmas and implications that make things difficult. Just wanted to get that off my chest!

[aerlinthe]

awe, i went through a massive purge too. been getting the urge to get some more panties, wish i could find a girl that understood aswell.

[mic091221]

I feel your pain !!!! my wife isn't that understanding,, i want to move further on from just panties to maybe leggings/ pantyhose, to nightgowns worn freely,, but I know deeply that that will not happen, so i have to just save up for the times that i am by myself to experience my lovely gowns ...

so listen up,,, if you have understanding wives,,, Enjoy them,, because they are far and few... !!!!

[Kitana]

My wife doesn't know yet. Although my dressing as a Butterfly Fairy for Halloween year before last should be a clue. I went through a mass purge myself when we last moved. I had the perfect hiding place for my collection in the old place. I am still trying to find a place in the new house so I only have a handful of pieces right now until I feel secure about my hiding spot.

[herpanties2007]

it is so terrible to have to feel ashamed by our fetish. I have yet to date a girl who is ok with it.

[Stephen]

Thanks for all of the responses- kind of nice knowing that I'm not alone.

[Teri]

Sorry to hear about your purge and the hard time your going through with your wife. As a longtime panty wearer I understand the conflict one has. When I was younger I too felt all the shame and wondered why I was different, even if there was others who had the same feelings I was experiencing. I did have a good friend(girlfriend) who help me out, and to this day we are best of friends. I understand not everyone has that type of friend but you do have many here that either have gone through the same thing or are feeling the same thing now. I hope things get better for you. Hang in there.

[AnotherLife]

I've been extraordinary fortunate in the woman who picked me as her husband, but for more than 40 years I was a closeted panty wearer and indulged in several of the less-acceptable fetishes as well. I also purged my panties many times, but always got more.

This all came tumbling out of me about four years ago in a session with a female psychologist who was seeing me for combat-related PTSD, and I determined on that day to tell all to my wife.

At the next opportunity I sat down with her and explained how I had begun wearing panties and engaging in my fetishes when I was only 12 or 13 years old. She listened quietly, asked a few questions, commented that the most amazing thing was how I'd managed to keep it all secret for so many years, and then said, "Is that all? I have some other things I need to do." A week or so later we had another talk, and I told her that I wanted to wear panties full time, and especially when we made love. She agreed without hesitation. Her take on men wearing panties: "What's a few square inches of cloth got to do with a relationship?" She admitted that she was a bit concerned that I might want to cross-dress with more than panties, especially if I did so in public, and I admitted that I fantasize about doing so. However, I don't have the need to do so, not like the need I have to wear panties.

Since then, my wife has shopped for panties with me, and indulged my fetishes, not the easiest thing in a small apartment. She has no fetishes herself, and not even a very high libido, but in the shower she has tried, and failed, to enjoy some very limited waterspouts. But I have no complaints. Most women would have walked out of my life the moment I revealed any of this stuff, especially the messier fetishes. In this case, however, our marriage has become even stronger. Lucky guy, me!

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[pipedream]

When I was in high school, my parents found sevral pair of panties under my bed while I was out for the evening. They were all laying out on the bed when I came home so I knew I had some explaining to do the next morning. I decided to come clean. They both asked questions that I answered truthfully. I even pulled more out from a couple more hiding spots. Finally I was going to kick my shameful secret! It didn't last and while I kept my collection to a minimum for several years, my first wife didn't get it. Thankfully we weren't married for very long and I decided that panties and lingerie are part of who I am so any time I got involved with someone, I told them up front. Living in a smaller community, rumors spread and now a lot of people actually have heard that I wear womens panties. The last girl I dated popped in unexpectedly and noticed a pair in the dirty laundry pile and asked who's they were. I flat out told her they were mine and she said that she had heard I wore them. I just laugh it off and say that most people are jealous because my ass looks better in panties than theirs does. Guess I have been lucky as my second ex wife and the mother of my children both had no problem with it and was able to enhance our sex life because of it. Its sad that society puts such shame on a pair of underwear.

[namakuro]

Ive done the purge many times. Ive been collecting, stealing and making panties since I was 12. I dont think Ive ever thrown them all out, just cut down the pile. I think at one point I had up to 300 pairs of stuff. One time I went to live in another country for a year. I took my best 12 pairs with me an buried another 30 in a box under my parents house. When i went home for the summer break after 6 months I dug them up again and brought them back with me. Now Im married and have a large stash hidden in the garage. (lockable steel tool box). My wife doesnt know. Now when I feel horny for panties I bring them to work and put them on there. There are too many to bring them all to work so I put them in smaller zip lock bags, pink stuff in one, white in another, black in another etc. Ill just grab one bag and it has all the color co-ordinated dress ups i need, stockings, several g-strings, thongs, panties, bra etc.

[shinysatinlover]

I've been down both sides of the road - closeted for years, and purged with every new house move and guilt-trip, to now, being 'out' and having a lot of people knowing about my cross-dressing; of course panties and the fetish I have for them as an adjunct to my dressing is actually all part of the same thing pretty much.

I stayed in that dark closet for years. I started cross-dressing at age of 7 or 8, so it was after my divorce, when I was about 28 or so, that I avowed not to cross dress any more, having purged a few times along the way. Of course, my ex-Wife had suspicions anyhow, for reasons best left unsaid at this juncture. I lasted 2 months and then I spent 2 years dressing again and being comfortable in my 'subversive' world - the place I'd been for 20+ years with no judge or jury and no reason to tell all. That is, until I met my 2nd Wife, with whom I wanted to be honest from the start, or at least when the relationship turned that corner. So, I told her, after a bottle or three of wine. I never underestimate how lucky I am to have a supportive SO, and to have no need to purge, but my reasons for doing so back then came at the price of other peoples opinions, their lack of acceptance in-fact. Most of us only feel guilt because of pressure to conform. That's the big deal, and yet it isn't, really! It's just that we have a lot of time to ponder these things, don't we!?

Of course it has to be said that our desires should not impede on another unless they're happy to indulge in it with us, so it is rather a difficult situation to be in, but if you do have to stay in the closet about it - purging won't help one bit, and it's hard as anything to talk about it, too! I remember the questions. After years and years of not talking about it, doing so was sooooooooo hard. REALLY hard, in-fact the hardest thing I have ever had to talk about, with no holds barred honesty. It made my own toes curl at times, LOL.

Anyhow - my point is that there wasn't one; these are simply my experiences in this game of life and panty fetishism. I wouldn't swap it either - any of it! It's way too much fun, both in and out of the closet!